It's time to come clean....

I have gained a lot of weight in Mexico. I don't have a scale so I'm not sure how much but the following numbers speak for themselves.

The first numbers are before I started the One Big Meal challenge. The second set is after I finished. The third set is where I am now. YIKES!!!!!!!


I have gained FOUR INCHES in my waist!! Almost 4 in my hips!!!! I am so embarrassed! Seeing the numbers like this is a huge wakeup call. I've HATED how I feel and look lately. I gain all my weight in my stomach and I hate wearing a bathing suit or even clothes that are somewhat tight. My stomach just hangs over.

I thought it was impossible to track my calories because I don't cook my own food a lot of the time. I'm LIVING in a hotel! But that cannot be my excuse any longer. If I continue with this job I might be living on the road for 6 more months and I need to adapt and not gain weight. I've had guy issues the past couple of weeks and that has also aided in my huge weight gain. Again, NOT a good excuse. No more excuses!

So I'm going to blog every day. Right now I would much rather be reading a book by the ocean before going to work but today I am blogging. I had a bad night last night where I drank too much and binged. I'm not proud of it and I need to do something drastic. I'm going to blog every day and report back my tracked calories. I don't know what else to do. I need to get it under control. I know I need to cut alcohol out but I'm not going to yet. I'm going to include those calories in my overall calories for the day. I'm not quite sure how many calories I should be eating because I can't weigh myself to figure it out but probably about 1500. I'm going to eat around that number. I think if I stay below 2000 most days that'll help.

Now in all seriousness I'm not sure why I've gained so much weight. I make very healthy eating choices most of the time. I get made fun of every day for it! I think it's the alcohol and my lack of movement. I sit really still during the day and I know that's been a huge problem. I work out almost every day but if I'm sedentary all day it's not going to make much difference.

Starting today I'm going to track how many calories I'm burning from 8:45am - 8:45pm and try every day to beat it. I'll be wearing my heart rate monitor.

Ok, deep breath. This will be hard. No doubt about it. I'm surrounded by people I work with and people on vacation who eat and drink a lot. I NEED to do this though.

Thanks for listening to my confessions! I do feel a little better.